17yr:
i often fantasize about what it would feel like
if i smashed everything in my room
and burned all my old pictures
and cut off all my hair
and dyed it green
like if i took everything holding me back
and destroyed it all at once so i could be free
but instead i find myself curled up on my bed
mumbling “shut up” to inanimate objects
because i can feel them judging me
i get really happy when it’s not me who starts the conversation because that removes so much anxiety about whether i’m bothering the person or if they secretly hate me even if i know that’s not true
(Source: foxnewsofficial)























